CD: ABC round five million
I figured since I am not sleeping anyway I would start back on my oxyelite pro pills to help me get back on track. I seem to be struggling lately just getting started and staying in line for more than three days its ridiculous. I set 300 cal as my limit today and so far I am with in boundaries but I was feeling the hunger pretty bad. Its because on Saturday I stumbled into a bread/bakery shop and I caved with a quickness. I will spare you the nasty details of the two day binge but lets just say two sweet loaves just got me started:( But leaving the past in the past. Intake for the day:
Lean cuisine grilled chicken caesar: 240cal
Diet 7 up: 0cal
1 sugar free chocolate pudding (maybe): 60 cal
Now that I have put a deposit on a place, started my new job, and feeling less depressed I am hoping to stay on track. I will have to redo my goal/reward section which I would normally never do but I am trying not to stunt my growth as a person. Plus I figure when on my own I will probably lose a lot because I will be too broke to eat anyway.
Although I am feeling less depressed I am feeling lonely on the love front. But it's almost a numb feeling at the same time. This last stream of rejection in my life has really forced me into hiding from my emotions. Either that or I am dealing with them exceptionally well that I do not even realize. Doubtful.