Monday, March 5, 2012

On again Off again On again

CW:  106.2
CP:  Oxyelite
CD:  ABC round five million

I figured since I am not sleeping anyway I would start back on my oxyelite pro pills to help me get back on track.  I seem to be struggling lately just getting started and staying in line for more than three days its ridiculous.  I set 300 cal as my limit today and so far I am with in boundaries but I was feeling the hunger pretty bad.  Its because on Saturday I stumbled into a bread/bakery shop and I caved with a quickness.  I will spare you the nasty details of the two day binge but lets just say two sweet loaves just got me started:(  But leaving the past in the past.  Intake for the day:

Lean cuisine grilled chicken caesar: 240cal
Diet 7 up:  0cal
1 sugar free chocolate pudding (maybe):  60 cal

Now that I have put a deposit on a place, started my new job, and feeling less depressed I am hoping to stay on track.  I will have to redo my goal/reward section which I would normally never do but I am trying not to stunt my growth as a person.  Plus I figure when on my own I will probably lose a lot because I will be too broke to eat anyway.

Although I am feeling less depressed I am feeling lonely on the love front.  But it's almost a numb feeling at the same time.  This last stream of rejection in my life has really forced me into hiding from my emotions.  Either that or I am dealing with them exceptionally well that I do not even realize.  Doubtful.

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3 comments:

  1. hey! thanks for following me! i love your blog and i cant believe how much weight you have lost since your starting weight! how did you do it? if you wanna email me, id love to be diet buddies.

    gymnastskinny@hotmail.com

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  2. Take care of yourself babes <3 xx

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  3. You will find love soon <3 You just have to wait for it to come to you :) xx

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